As I was scurrying around the house last night picking up dirty clothes, chasing Pickle into the shower and eating my tea at the top of the stairs whilst listening to Roo read, I realised just how crazy life is at the moment.
I thought you might like a little insight into my world. Just so you can see that I am a ‘normal’ person with the ‘normal’ challenges one faces when you have a family.
I wrote recently about my fears of releasing my wholegrain flour to the public.
At the moment I feel as though I am standing at the top of a cliff knowing that I am going to jump, but not knowing if there will be anything there to catch my fall.
In truth the terror is as real as that; I am bizarrely terrified of succeeding and failing in equal measure.
During school hours I am busy preparing for the show. The last two days I have spent baking things with pastry, photographing them and creating videos to explain the process of making the different types. This will all form my first ebook on pastry which will provide recipes (with various options on ingredients) for shortcrust, choux, rough-puff and Danish pastry.
I am not a natural photographer. Baking I find easy and even therapeutic, but photography is something else. It is a challenge and one that I am trying to approach head-on.
In addition to getting everything ready for the show I am undertaking an online photography course. I haven’t really got time for it and am not fully participating, but I hope I pick up enough tips from it to improve my photography a little.
Getting the flour produced in a dedicated gluten-free facility was always important to me but there are very few of them in the country. Even on this first batch I have had a few problems that add to my anxiety about the show. I will only be happy once I have the bags of flour in sight and that won’t be until next Thursday afternoon.
I’ve had some failures in baking this week too. Unexplained and unexpected ones!
My shortcrust pastry decided it was not going to be moved without falling apart; something that has never happened before. Rather than give up I pressed the pastry gently into the dish and it ended up baking as it always does, but these unexplained quirks of gluten-free baking still challenge me, even when I have made something tens of times over!
In addition to baking, writing, photographing, videoing, editing and preparing for the show there is a lot to sort out in our family lives.
Of course the obvious things like washing, cooking and chasing around after the kids but also other stuff that makes July the most crazy in the year…
Roo and Pickle both have birthday’s to celebrate and parties to organise, Roo is going on her first Brownie pack holiday today (eek), the kids break up from school, we have a holiday to plan in France (so far we only have the ferry booked), Mr M and I have the anniversary of our ‘getting together’ (23 years ago) to celebrate and Mr M has the ‘small’ task of organising the school’s summer fete…
If you know me then I am sorry if I appear distracted. I am! My head is fit to burst. I’m hugely excited about the show where I hope to meet many of you, but I will also be glad when it is over and I can turn my attention to the next thing on the horizon; Pickle’s birthday a few days later.
I hope you will understand that I won’t be blogging next week; I have Pickle’s sports day to watch on Monday, a parent’s evening on Wednesday, an ebook to write and I will be travelling up to London on Thursday to set up for the show.
I will breathe a sigh of relief when July is over! What is your July like?