OK, so a few weeks ago when I made the decision to go ahead and develop a recipe book I also thought that it would be nice to provide regular updates on how I was getting on.
The successes I had had along with the failures; some pictures to whet your appetite for the final product, that kind of thing. It also seemed like a good idea to do that at the end of each week…so you could start to expect an update every Friday (or thereabouts).
Well all good plans…
This week has not been quite as I had hoped.
It started on Monday with a mad baking session to create 60 bakes for an event I had been asked to cater for. Since I need every penny I can lay my hands on to create this book I agreed to do it!
In addition to that I had to prepare my next three recipes for the series I am making for Nature’s Path, ready for a photoshoot on Tuesday.
Tuesday also happened to be the day that Pickle ran a 40 degree + temperature, from which he has suffered all week.
Since today was his class ‘reward’ pyjama party, he was determined to go to school this morning. As his temperature was back to normal I reluctantly agreed to let him go in, but lo and behold at 11.30am I had a call from the school telling me he was looking dreadful.
He is now asleep on the sofa (something that he NEVER does), so I know how poorly he must feel.
So this week has been tricky.
To top it off I have been suffering from a bout of my fairly regular self-doubt.
Every day I fight that inner voice that tells me I am not good enough, that I am a bad mum and a bad wife, that nobody would buy a book if I published it, that my recipes are rubbish…the list goes on.
Generally I can ignore it, but there are times when it overwhelms me, like a giant wave crashing over a helpless crab. It drags me down and I have to fight to pull myself back up.
Despite some truly lovely contacts and acts of kindness towards me (such as being included in a Tots 100 Fresh 5 – blogs to make you think by blogger Victoria Welton of Verily Victoria Vocalises), this week I am still struggling.
When this happens it is generally time for me to take a break from my blog and recipes and make a fresh start when I feel more confident and happy.
Luckily half-term is perfectly timed. The kids break up today so I shall be focussing on them rather than me for a week!
I hope to come back in a couple of weeks reporting massive progress on the book! In the meantime have a good half-term!